on hold

By countdown is officially frozen. One minute I think I am living on one day the next I find out I am leaving on another and the next I find out that I don't really have a clue as to where I am going and how I am going to get there. Life is flusterating like that sometimes. NOTE: Yes, I know that flusterating is not is fact a word that is in the dictionary but it is in my vocabulary so you are just going to have to deal with it. If you don't like it then you need to stop reading because, well, right now I am a little lot flusterated. See what I mean?

I wish I could really find out when I am leaving for school. I want to go to freshman orientation I want to see Jordan in September and I want to know that I will have everything that I need in order to be successful. I am very disappointed in the people that I trust because, right now, I have discovered that they have all seemed to have let me down. They are unplanned, they think that I can just afford to buy a ticket to get me to school and then make it there all on my own and this just isn't true. some people just do not understand that life is not the same as it has always been. It isn't that easy to just up and move unless you have that kind of money which, at the moment, I do not have.

I really do hope that everything works out in the end because, as I said on facebook, all I want is "to go to college, learn some stuff, make some friends (hopefully), and then get out and get on with my life. STOP MAKING ME BEAT AROUND THE BUSH HERE I DO NOT LIKE IT!

End of story goodnight.